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I AM AN ADDICT......PART 5

Hi, I'm Kevin and I'm an addict.

My day count has now made it to 3 days now and not getting easier. I'm back to work now so I have that going for me. Today was a tumultuous day and while stuck in traffic I almost started acting out. We are told that after you feel the need then your next step is to get a grip on your coping mechanism. Mine is to call my sponsor and get words of encouragement to make it to a safe place and she said something to me that I will never forget. "Take pride in yourself",simple as that. I feel worthless after I use and the high is gone but while sober my confidence and self worth give a whole new high that I cant explain. I am not saying I have found the all time cure but for however long my recovery takes I shall forever take pride in myself.
Thanks for letting me share.

Hi I'm Kevin and I'm an addict.....

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