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I AM AN ADDICT.......PART 7

Hi Im Kevin and Im an addict...
With a new sobriety day count Id like to start by saying I have made it 7 days. Dont applaud now, still have the rest of my life. I noticed something today, there are differences between us and other people. I saw someone the other day drink half a beer, do you know what would happen if I took even a bottle cap. Its crazy right? The difference between us addicts and recreational users has always puzzled me. How one can use on a friday night for fun then go a couple of weeks without even thinking about it, thats just short of a miracle. I used to comfort myself that I was just appreciating the drug in all its worth and I understood the implications. But I really didnt. I was an addict and no amount of mantra could change that. Maybe someday Ill find something to take my mind off the high but for now, Ill just let things ride and make myself better.

Thanks for letting me share.

Hi im Kevin and Im an addict....

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