KENYAN AND CRAZY

Hi Im Kevin and Im an addict... With a new sobriety day count Id like to start by saying I have made it 7 days. Dont applaud now, still have the rest of my life. I noticed something today, there are differences between us and other people. I saw someone the other day drink half a beer, do you know what would happen if I took even a bottle cap. Its crazy right? The difference between us addicts and recreational users has always puzzled me. How one can use on a friday night for fun then go a couple of weeks without even thinking about it, thats just short of a miracle. I used to comfort myself that I was just appreciating the drug in all its worth and I understood the implications. But I really didnt. I was an addict and no amount of mantra could change that. Maybe someday Ill find something to take my mind off the high but for now, Ill just let things ride and make myself better. Thanks for letting me share. Hi im Kevin and Im an addict....

Hi I'm Kevin and I'm an addict...... I actually don't feel low today. Not that my problems have gone away just that I have encountered bigger problems. It came as a realization that the last time I decided to get sober all my energies were driven towards work and I actually excelled. With that the motto " The power is within me" comes to mind. The only time I ever felt like using was when I was idle. Sufficed to say I have been a hard worker in recent days and don't seem to slowing down. So what kind of bigger problems have I run into? Well Lets just call them work problems and when they do happen I just keep my head down and concentrate on the matters at hand. I reiterate that I haven't been absolved of my addiction but I sure as hell am ding my best to kick it... Thanks for letting me share. Hi I'm Kevin and I'm an addict...

I live a very well thought out life, everything always has it place and anything out of place needs to be chucked out as soon as possible. That's what I always thought until the sound of a door getting banged in my face changed all that. So what am i babbling about, well it's Friday afternoon and my girl just broke up with me just as I was dropping her at her office after lunch. I didn't respond when the words the signified the end of our relationship were said. My thoughts were scrambled to the point of not noticing that after she had already walked away, I was still sitting in my car with its engine running in the middle of the street. In the cloudy mist that was my mind I started hearing some faint hooting, it completely cleared when a guy started knocking against my window. I drove through the city like a zombie only ensuring that I was always been the white road lines.After what seemed lie forever but was probably only 10 minutes I as on Uhuru highway with abso