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I AM AN ADDICT.......PART 4

Hi I'm kevin and I'm an addict....
Recovery is a choice that you have to make. It isn't the easiest thing in the world but it's not in your best interest to make it harder than it already is. I listened to what the rest of you guys said and I realized that I am burying my head and not actually dealing with things. Making amends with the people I hurt due to my addiction and the things that I had abandoned in my persuit to feed my addiction. One of you said that you are going to take some alone time and keep away from distractions so that you can reevaluate your life. I don't think I can do that, I constantly need distractions so that I don't end up using again. I probably used again a couple of days ago coz I left my mind idle for too long and I realized that one of my friends was using too so I got pissed off and did it myself. I know that I am to be in charge of my own happiness and moments of weakness I can't afford but this journey will be anything but a cake walk. I know that if I fall back into addiction I better not make it out or else I may not want to live my life sober again. 
Thank you for letting me share.......
Hi I'm kevin and I'm an addict.

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