Hi, I am Kevin and I am Addict.
Its been 1,180 days since i shared in this group. I see some familiar faces like Mark over there. Stay strong brother, good to see you are still alive. I guess since only Mark and I laughed, we are the only ones who get it. I see some new faces, hey everyone, and off course our group counselor. For the new people around, a few years a go I hit rock bottom. For those who are yet to get hat feeling it is both the worst feeling in the world and a blessing for those who survive it.
My addiction pushed me to lows that I didn't know. My own self-worth was tied to the feeling that this drug gave me and to be honest I never thought I could be able to let it go. Just to be completely honest , especially for those who just joined the group, you never really stop wanting to use. You will always want that puff, the snort , that one pill that you feel you need to get you through the next minute of your life. The true power of sobriety comes from being able to overcome this feeling. We may not be able to change who we are but we can take responsibility for the things that we do.
Repeat after me
God grant me the serenity to accept he things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference
So why have i come back after all his time. Could be because I had missed you guys but in reality I realized that I couldn't continue doing it on my own. We all have friends, family and loved ones who cant seem to understand why we struggle with things that they can just stop. After a while i felt isolated and i almost slipped a few times. I flirted with the "Just once" story and a few times I almost did it.
Thanks for letting me share.
Hi I am Kevin and I am an ADDICT.....
I am back to keep getting better.
Its been 1,180 days since i shared in this group. I see some familiar faces like Mark over there. Stay strong brother, good to see you are still alive. I guess since only Mark and I laughed, we are the only ones who get it. I see some new faces, hey everyone, and off course our group counselor. For the new people around, a few years a go I hit rock bottom. For those who are yet to get hat feeling it is both the worst feeling in the world and a blessing for those who survive it.
My addiction pushed me to lows that I didn't know. My own self-worth was tied to the feeling that this drug gave me and to be honest I never thought I could be able to let it go. Just to be completely honest , especially for those who just joined the group, you never really stop wanting to use. You will always want that puff, the snort , that one pill that you feel you need to get you through the next minute of your life. The true power of sobriety comes from being able to overcome this feeling. We may not be able to change who we are but we can take responsibility for the things that we do.
Repeat after me
God grant me the serenity to accept he things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference
So why have i come back after all his time. Could be because I had missed you guys but in reality I realized that I couldn't continue doing it on my own. We all have friends, family and loved ones who cant seem to understand why we struggle with things that they can just stop. After a while i felt isolated and i almost slipped a few times. I flirted with the "Just once" story and a few times I almost did it.
Thanks for letting me share.
Hi I am Kevin and I am an ADDICT.....
I am back to keep getting better.
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